Mom sent Justin and me an article from the newspaper about adoption. The title is "November becomes a more significant month" by Nathan Key. Tonight I was listening to the radio and heard a letter from a woman who is suffering through infertility. The letter was asking for advice because she feels so broken and alone. I began to cry. I wish I could call this complete stranger and offer words of encouragement and hope. So tonight I will attempt to share.....
Key says, "While not born to us biologically, Landon is as much our son as if he had been conceived by us. I know this because he is the child God chose for us, just as He chose us to be parents for Landon.
Am I proud of my son? You bet I am. But I'm proud of the fact that Misty and I put aside our fears of adoption and followed the process to completion. It has brought such a tremendous reward, a gift that means more than we can ever begin to explain.
Many people are hesitant about adopting. Yes, there are some peaks and valleys in the process, some things that can go wrong. We've been there. We rode that roller coaster of emotions, up and down, but we finished with the exuberance of knowing that we have our son, the one God intended for us to raise, and that makes all we went through worth-while."
This is exactly how Justin and I feel about Samuel. We KNOW that God called us to adopt and we KNOW that he chose Samuel to become our child. As I have said many times before on this blog, I am so thankful for infertility. God had a different plan for us and His plan is always best.
Last night I could not go to sleep because I started thinking about all the ways God provided for us during the process of adoption. Yes, there were many nights that I would think about all of the uncertainties. I would drive myself crazy thinking what if this or that but in the end I could rest knowing that God was in control. He was making a beautiful tapestry while I could only see the threads. There were many people (too many to name) that God used to help me through. Last night I thought about my friend who held my hand every step of the way. She had recently adopted and was there to answer every question and encourage me along the way. Then there was my sister who somehow managed to gather everything you would possible need for a baby and have it all at my house in 24 hours. Her friends just happened to be having a yard sale the day after we brought Samuel home and they were selling all of their baby equipment. We then had a wonderful doctor who VOLUNTEERED to circumcise Samuel for us after I had called everywhere around our area and no one would help us. An aunt drove hundreds of miles and missed her son's school activity day just to talk with me about some concerns I was having. There were MANY prayer warriors who carried me through the years of infertility and the adoption process. Through everything God is Jehovah-Jireh. He is faithful and always provides. I would not take anything for the journey that has brought me to this place.
The last time I talked to our social worker she told me that they are extremely busy and have a great need for adoptive parents. I pray that if you are reading this blog and feel the calling to adopt you will be able to put all of your fears aside and move forward knowing that God has your situation in the palm of His hand. He will provide!
What a beautiful site. Samuel and your and Justin's situation brings me hope. Bro. Freeman preached, on Sunday about what David reminded his brothers of when they questioned his ability to fight the giant. In other words what God had done before. It gave me a lot of hope for other issues. Samuel is may past answer to pray and is my inspiration for hope this Holiday Season. Love Mom
ReplyDelete