Thursday, January 27, 2011

A Perfect Plan of Redemption

I decided to participate in Kelly's Korner SUYL adoption stories so if you already know our story you might want to skip this post. :)



Justin and I were blessed to adopt Samuel through Bethany Christian Services in September 2009. In June 2009 we were officially placed on the waiting list and had been told that we could wait up to two years for a child. In only three short months we received the call that would change our lives forever. Samuel was 3 days old when we received the call and he was placed in our arms by a loving foster mother when he was 10 days old.
Something I would like to share in this post are the words that were spoken to us at a Bethany training session by a social worker. She explained that adoption is not God's perfect plan; however, adoption is a perfect plan of redemption. She went on to say that only God could take the fears of a unplanned pregnancy, an innocent child, and all the pain and heartache felt by an infertile couple and create a beautiful story. I knew that God had called us to adopt but I had many fears. When she said these words my heart began to understand adoption fully. I can say that because of one special birth mother, a precious baby boy, and our willingness to answer God's call our family has experienced this perfect plan of redemption. Samuel has brought more joy and love to our home than I ever dreamed. God healed our broken hearts, Samuel is being loved unconditionally, and we will always remember his birth mother along with our prayer for her “May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.”


Our story is throughout the blog so if you would like to read more details you can look through older post.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Busy Week

First, thank you to everyone who has called, commented, emailed, sent cards, etc. about our news. We always feel overwhelmed with support and love. Thank you and keep praying! My next appointment is Feb. 8th.
We have some "big" days this week for our family. Tomorrow will be one year since Samuel's adoption became secure. I remember the phone call like it was yesterday and the only way to describe what I was feeling is complete RELIEF!!! We were so happy that the process was complete. We immediately started planning his dedication service which was this coming Sunday one year ago. Pictures of that weekend are in my blog archives in January 2010. Justin and I will be sure to give him lots of hugs and kisses tomorrow (like every other day) :) We are so thankful for Samuel and God's divine providence. He is such joy!
On Saturday Justin and I will celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary. I cannot believe we have been married six years. Time passes so quickly :( This song

reminds me so much of Justin. If I could go back to my wedding day I would say these words to my parents. I feel the same way six years later. He is good and I am so glad God brought us together. We have a lot of celebrating to do!
This picture was the only one I had of our family on Christmas day so I wanted to add it to my blog. Late.. I know :)


Hope all of you have a wonderful week!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Details

Where to start???
Three years ago Justin and I were told by a Duke specialist that we had "less than a 5% chance.. if that..." of ever conceiving a child on our own. I remember starting to cry and feeling so hopeless and broken. I had many problems. Not just one and the more test they did the more they seemed to find. My dream of becoming a mother was slipping away. My heart ached and although I knew that I was serving the Great Physician the words the Dr. had spoken would never leave my mind.
Time passed... and I started going through the grieving process. I was angry for awhile, then depressed, etc. and finally through many prayers and tears I began to accept the fact that I was barren. I would hear the news that another person was pregnant or see a complete stranger who was expecting and that familiar ache would rise again. Justin and I along with so many people kept praying for God's will to be done and in Feb. 2009 we both felt the call to adopt. Justin and I knew without a doubt that God had directed us to adopt a child through Bethany Christian Services. Finally... I felt complete peace. On September the 18th 2009 we brought our son, Samuel, home. God began to heal my broken heart. Piece by piece was carefully placed back together as only He could do.
Around Samuel's first birthday Justin and I began praying again about adoption. We had such a wonderful experience that we decided we should adopt another baby. We were waiting on God and praying for direction. We both wanted to adopt again but neither of us felt the assurance that we knew we needed to move forward. We were waiting....
On December 22nd I finally found the courage to go get a test. The woman who checked me out said "Oh, this would be a nice Christmas gift" I just smiled. Justin and I were shocked... He immediately went to the computer and searched "reasons for a false positive pregnancy test" We both decided that we would try not to think anything until we talked to a Dr. The office was closed on the 23rd so we waited until the Monday after Christmas. They did blood work and said I would probably have to come back every 48 hours because of all of my problems. When they received the results the next day my Doctor was amazed and said everything looked great and to decide where I wanted to go. (He does not deliver) I called my Doctor at Duke and they said "If you are pregnant we would not treat you any different than any other patient" I found a Doctor and at our first appointment after he reviewed all of my records he said "EVERY pregnancy is special but this one is well... special" and he told us he would do an early ultrasound. We went yesterday and saw a little tiny heart beating on the screen. I was overwhelmed with emotion. Can you say love at first heartbeat? We met with the Doctor after the ultrasound and he explained that I am only seven weeks along and that a lot could happen. We are all very nervous but I decided to tell for one main reason.... Both of my babies are the direct result of POWER IN PRAYER. This thought came to my mind as we were driving away from the office yesterday. So I am humbly asking everyone who reads this to please say a prayer for our family and the precious tiny life that is growing in my womb. God already knows the future as if it were the past. Jeremiah 1:1 says "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee.."
If you are reading this and you are still suffering from infertility please allow our story to bring hope to your heart. God is the Great Physician and with Him all things are possible! He can change any situation as He did with Hannah, Elizabeth, Sarah, and many others. Praise His name!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Miracles Happen

"...With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." Mathew 19:26
Are you shocked? So is our Dr. and SO ARE WE!!!
"He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the Lord." Psalm 113:9
Our second miracle will be arriving late August :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Beach Trip

We had a wonderful Christmas and New Year's. I am very behind on blogging because Samuel and I have been sick all week. :( We spent a couple of days at the beach and we were there for New Year's Eve. We went to Broadway to watch the fireworks and had a lot of fun with Samuel. He loved them!
Robin and Samuel riding the carousel.





Watching fireworks


Being silly with his thumb



Fun times at Mellow Mushroom


Our happy boy!
This morning we woke up and found snow on the ground. Everything looked so beautiful but I just told Justin that I am ready for warm weather! Hope you have a wonderful weekend.